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I don’t make them anymore as I forget about them and carry on doing the things that I have decided not to do ūüôā

One thing that I would love this year is a resolution to tell me the truth – I don’t care if it hurts me, I don’t care if I don’t like it, but I just want the truth! ¬†Wonder if my husband and my so called friends could do that for me?

I am sick of being taken as a fool, I am tired of people thinking that I am to stupid to work things out for myself. ¬†I’m also sick to the back teeth about people thinking I don’t know what is going on, and even when questioned, they look me in the eyes and tell me that they HAVE stopped this or that, or that I am in the wrong, or that I’m imagining things. ¬†I HATE that!

I am neither stupid or dumb, I know what is going on and I just want the truth. ¬†I will NOT be the one who is told she is going crazy or is very wrong. ¬†JUST TELL ME THE TRUTH ¬†that’s all I ask.

I dislike this time of year intensely! ¬†I have always disliked it as it means drink and drunk people. ¬†My father is to blame for this as he was an alcoholic and us children were terrified of him. ¬†This time of year was especially difficult as he would be drunk from Christmas Eve right through to New Year’s Day. ¬†I cannot, no matter what I do stop feeling down and still scared at this time of year. ¬†Dad’s dead now, he will have been dead for 19 years come the 2nd January, yet as much as I disliked him and was scared of him, and was beaten such a lot by him I still mourn him?!

I try so hard to keep myself busy at this time, keep the brain active, get things done, don’t think of the past, don’t think of the future. ¬†I’m 55 years old now and am approaching the age that my dad died – well I will be in 5 years, he died aged 60, and yes, it was the alcohol. ¬†What a waste, what a damned waste of a life, and what a damned waste of our lives because you saw us as things to beat when you had drunk whisky, or you would be happy one minute then angry the next. ¬†I hated it, all of it and it won’t leave me. ¬†I’ve been diagnosed with P.T.S.D because of you, and that’s not fair that you still scare me and leave me dreading this time of year due to drinking, the fighting and the feeling of doom from beyond the grave!

I will take myself to bed early, as I do at this time of year every year РI will pop a sleeper and will hopefully be asleep by the time 2014 comes.  I know I will be down for the next few days, I know I will worry my husband even though he sees this each year and yet, after everything, I will still cry on the 2nd, for you, for me and for what could have been.

So all along, yet again, IDS and his ilk have lied, and lied again and again. ¬†They have known about this and have ignored the rules and it’s about time that they are brought to task!

Bedroom Tax – the protected pre 1996 regulations – sources and comment. It applies and exempts!.

Another complete disgrace!

UK state pension is lowest in Europe.

They both have the same ideas, they both have the sadistic nature of a narcissist and they both look extremely alike.

I can only hope that IDS gets the same treatment as Sauckel did – but I know he won’t. ¬†However, he should be in court for the same reasons, crimes against humanity, along with the rest of the coalition cabinet and Lord Fraud! ¬†A proper court, a proper jury and a proper prison sentence – as well as all monies belonging to him/them to be taken from them!

The remarkable similarities between Fritz Sauckel and Iain Duncan Smith.


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